Hello, friend! I'm Peter, a Christian ( ✝️ ) gay ( 🏳️🌈 ) side B ( 🐝 ) composer ( 🎵 ) sharing anonymous gay dispatches from inside outside the closet ( 🚪 ). I can be found on Bluesky: @koechliniana.bsky.social.
In November of 2020, I gave a virtual talk to a group of friends entitled, Creativity & Constraint: Queering the Formal System where I discussed how my experience as a composer and my interest in formal systems has helped me to better understand the unique calling and vocation of side B people like myself.
After spending much more time developing some of my thoughts and starting to write connected notes in Obsidian, I decided to begin using creativityconstraint.com as a digital garden to share my current thoughts on these various, sprawling, interconnected subjects. My goal is to make space in my life to intentionally develop these ideas. Because this garden is my personal collection of resources, some of the notes and ideas gathered here will be of a highly specialized nature (i.e. particularly focused on music). I make no apologies for this, but if you would like to know more about any of these obscure topics, feel free to ask on Twitter.
If this is your first visit, I suggest that you start with my note for the Creativity & Constraint talk mentioned above. You might also want to check out the website where I came out publicly.
Disclaimer: I am not a theologian, mathematician, or philosopher. 🙁 I study music and the humanities, and so I will primarily be engaging the models that I have developed for thinking about music and my own experience. Feel free to send corrections or pushback my way on Bluesky, but note that I will not be engaging in *Discourse™️*.